disposible fortune

for all the money you bring into your life most of it will go up in smoke. there is no possible way for you to save more than 80% of your income. unless you are independently wealthy. but when you look back at where your money has gone and what it has been spent on you can justify most of it and the rest is to make you happy long enough to not commit suicide in this harsh life. but i want to focus on the justified portion, namely clothing. it is customary for you to be clothed and not wander the streets naked. one for social reasons as we as humans developed shame. second is for survival, we don't want the whole world catching a cold in the rain and bringing the human race to extinction. i just want to get a better understanding on the idea that you must virtually replace your entire wardrobe every season. yes things get old and you need to not wear torn cloths. however the amount of shirts that most people say they can not wear and often times refuse to donate is ridiculous. then you have shoe collections, a hobby to some a financial move for others. because the shoes you buy and never get to wear go up in value somehow. but how much money have some people including my self spent on filling a closet. for some reason it is weird for us to see our closets with empty space. it should not be that way. you will spend, you will shop, you will buy more than you need. just ask your self why, its to give your self personal growth.

money the way it is suppose to be

i didn't win the lotto jackpot, not even a consolation prize, not yet anyway. because in life we are suppose to just overnight get a sum of money to change our lives.

its great to fantasize about all the life changing things you would do with a fortune handed to you for the gamble of a dollar or two. but no one plans to gain a fortune threw hard work and a long life.

long story short, its a dream it would be great if it all came true, but have a real solid plan be to get that big house in the hills

your life has been divided and conqured

that statement is an old quote i cam up with a few years back. i was trying to come up with a life changing quote once a day, then twitter cam out and i didn't join and now i wonder if any of my quotes would have held any weight. but the comment is based on the brilliant military strategy of julius ceser, in a nut shell you cause your enemy to be spread thin and unable to properly act against you. so in life in at least america in the modern age there is so much available to you that you can do it all but you can not do it all at once, and that is where people fall victim to the trap. conspiracy theorist will tell you all about the possible makers of these traps and some will tell you there is no such trap. i look at it from a step back where i see the pictures of some one on their couch plating on a laptop a tablet and a cell phone, no doubt with a tv on. that is at least three solid different thing to do at the same time, and each of those avenues has numerous possibilities with in them selves to have you caught in a whirlwind of thought and action. in that one case the trap has taken the one thing you forget they told you to do when you where little, focus. not all traps are against your focus but they are against one of the many things that you need to conquer life. in this one example someone somewhere will tell me that i just don't understand multitasking. i do understand multi tasking i have worked in an office handling three problems via phone email and a coworker standing over me with in a ten minute time crunch. multitasking is a great tool, so shy do you have to multitask even when you are on your couch enjoying yourself. a picture is a picture and i have no point of reference for what was really going on in that particular situation. i just want to let you know that i noticed that within myself i crave constant stimulation where like that person in the picture i would want to have a tv on while i played video games to the soundtrack i custom designed on my home stereo, all while having a good conversation with a friend. why is that what i want how can i truly enjoy all of that at once, their may have been a time when i would have. now i look at that as a incomplete effort at any of those activities.  i want to focus and be satisfied by the one activity i am partaking in i want to not feel bad that i am not doing something that i am not doing. if all my energy is gathered and aimed at doing one thing then i know i can do it and not be a person that says they wanted to do a certain thing. to put this in another light how many different things are you paying for on a daily weekly or monthly basis how would it be different if you could just pay one of those things at a time until it was done and then moved on to the next one till each are complete. its a recession so you might not be running up several different credit card bills but imagine just focusing on one at a time unlike the current payment method you are using. now tell me if your money is not being divided conquered and taken away from you?

people use to be smart

watch jeopardy and feel stupid! people use to be that smart on a daily basis, you could ask anyone anything and most of them knew it. google has made that possible but only on an on-demand basis leaving everyone looking like they are texting instead getting smart. but how do you get to just know this stuff and remember it when people ask you about them? i truly don't know the only thing i can recommend is to read something anything everything. you have to actually put your self in a situation where encounter information. if you have a child and you ever tell them to read a book you are in effect showing the kid how stupid you are and telling them that you are ignorant to who they are as a person and you have no understanding of anything tat goes on within their minds. you don't ever give a kid who has no interest in a book a book, you are competing against tv, cable, the internet, video games, smartphones, and tablets. yes each of those is separate form of competition to a book and each uses very little to no words. they are all used for entertainment and would be very low on the information list. you could learn the secrets of the world from any of those devices but no one wants to but i cant dismiss them some people learn a lot of things from them just by not even trying and from the very mind numbing things that you think i am talking about. then again where does someone learn about the answers to jeopardy questions if not an obscure cable show he heard about on twitter.

my president is..... and now i know how to rule the world

the 44th president kept his job and that is besides the point of why i am mentioning it. i have looked and learned many things not just from his two elections but from all the little things they have shown and said surrounding his life. you have to truly start from the bottom sometimes to get anywhere in life. family and money bring all kids of advantages that no one would ever willingly give up but because people expect an advantage they are never willing to start at the bottom. most people don't know that almost everything they do they are actually on the bottom rung of that en-devour, you are an amateur, inexperienced, of just out of your league. i want to rule the world and i better start by seeping a factory floor. that was the one thing my parents put into my mind as being the worst ending in life for an adult, they sacred me to death of being this kind of failure and to this day sweeping my own floor is a challenge. a real emotional thing, i ask my self why am i not rich enough to pay someone to do this so i can play playstation. reality hits me again and i realize that i haven't put in the hard work and made a plan to get to a point where i can actually do that. i need to learn so much to be able to climb past all the other well qualified competition and the cutthroat chess geniuses that i encounter in life. i need to start from step one and make all the right and wrong moves to get to step 1000 the finish line. because one i have to make mistakes because perfection is a whole nother life long mission and two this is not a 12 step program but something i have to commit eight out of ten of my waking breaths to, i need time to sleep have sex and build my life and family besides trying to rule the world. but the bottom is where i start and the the truth about the bottom is you only stay there as long as you are willing to. there are people making a life from themselves and when you ask them where they came from they tell you a blood soaked town in the middle of nowhere that people died from not getting any food or eating stuff you didn't know fire could transform past what it actual was. that person is not there anymore the how is an interesting story but the fact that he got a few levels past that mean you need to shut up and reach above you for the next rung on your ladder to what ever it is you are trying to do

the little bit i truely know

so no one may ever see, hear, or know about this tiny corner of the internet that is the extension of my mind. i want to just put some thoughts and points of views out in the world mostly for myself to look back and say "i thought like that once". this will be me talking out loud, i will back everything i say until i choose not to back what i say. if i look back and change my mind its my option and its called evolution but i don't expect to be a controversial voice but i know i may think and write something someone might ask why. they say the internet is a tool for the voiceless and that their are a lot of faceless people just saying what ever they want just because they can, i don't want to be a faceless person i want to be a colorful mind.

fuck editing i am a nobody, but i dont want to sound an look like a 12 year old who can only talk in text shorcuts and never learned to use the spell check buton that comes standard with all technology.

i got to much to think about to say anything more because it would all be pointless so wait for it to be properly laid out in the short term future